Aaaaahhhh Kristen Doute, one-part hoochie mama, one-part crazy, one-part atrociously bad employee, one-part drama queen, and one-part REALLY, REALLY, REALLY bad decision maker! She's one helluva a potent Molotov cocktail!
After spending an entire season (and I mean entire) of Vanderpump Rules fretting boyfriend Tom "1" Sandoval of cheating with co-worker Ariana Madix, Kristen, the little hypocrite that could, was caught in a cheating scandal of her own – with BFF Stassi Schroeder's ex-boyfriend Jax Taylor.
Of course Kristen denied it. A lot. Even when all evidence pointed to the contrary. But somebody called Sherlock and Law & Order style Kristen got cornered and confessed. Yep, the kitty is out of the bag: Kristen banged Jax – and liked it!
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With that being said, Kristen is now claiming that her confession was the right thing to do. Well that's nice! "Hallelujah. No more dirty secrets or lies," Kristen begins in her Bravo Blog. "This past summer was a frightening roller coaster ride. I had so many skeletons in my closet and the truth will ALWAYS prevail (especially if you're on a reality show)."
"I'm in a much better place than I was then. Hindsight is always 20/20 and watching back I wish I had just told the truth when Jax spilled our secret. I was so afraid of the repercussions that I literally planned on taking it to my grave," Kristen admits. "In the moment, I would have done anything to make Jax look like the liar because I felt my entire life was on the line."
"I may have felt differently if Jax had come to me privately and said, 'This is eating away at me, we have to tell them.' He didn't announce it because he had remorse and that's what really bothered me. At that point, he had already screwed Tom over by confessing the Ariana secret and he had lost Stassi so in Jax's mind he had nothing left to lose."
Kristen says Jax's motivation was "attention/relevance in our group" and she thinks that everyone forgiving him is disgraceful. "I don't, for a split second, condone what I did and couldn't be more sorry and ashamed. I do, however, think it's bulls— that everyone turned their back on me and didn't even bat an eyelash at Jax."
Kristen admits that Tom 1 is the reason she finally came clean.
"The lies started eating away at me and I could barely look at Tom. I started lying to myself, silently pleading for it to all go away. Hoping for a sudden turn of events that Jax would have some sort of loyalty to me and tell everyone he had made the whole thing up. Everyday, seeing Tom defending me and our relationship while I was lying straight to his face. . .was heartbreaking."
"I knew if I told him that I would lose him, but it was better than staying in a tumultuous and dishonest relationship. Yes, he had cheated on me multiple times with several girls over the five-and-a-half years we were together, but he didn't deserve this. I can admit this was the lowest thing I had ever done and I had to put my big girl pants on and own it."
"When I finally admitted the truth to Tom, I don't think it really hit him. He left the apartment, came back and told me to get my shit together and get ready for Scheana's party."
Kristen says she is so grateful that he stood by her while she confessed to Stassi. " I knew that no one would be surprised that it was true, but they would be shocked that I actually admitted it. Tom and I decided that Stassi was the first person I had to speak to. I wasn't going in there to make a grand announcement. I had to look her in the eye and own my mistakes. I wasn't surprised that Tom had, once again, come to my defense."
Kristen also believes Jax getting punched was karma. "I've never seen Tom get physical with another guy ever, but Jax's lack of remorse and respect was begging Tom to punch him. I don't condone fighting but Jax really did deserve it. It wasn't premeditated but the whiskey was flowing and after all Tom had been through the past few weeks, it was bound to happen."
And she does regret that their relationship is over. "As messed up as our relationship had become, I will never have with anyone what I had with Tom," Kristen admits. "As hateful as we had acted toward each other at times and beyond all of the lies and disrespect, deep down we both loved each other very much. I know how counterintuitive that sounds, but there aren't words to describe the love I will always have for him. "
Next week is the tumultuous reunion. And frankly I'm salivating. I don't care what anyone says – I enjoy VPR more than any other reality show I'm watching right now. And as for all the claims that it's fake, they're actors – who cares! It's still a darn good watch!
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